“A single event can awaken within us a stranger totally unknown to us. To live is to be slowly born.”
~ Antoine de Saint-Exupery

Brilliant quote from the author of my favorite book, The Little Prince.

I really should re-read it soon... it's been WAY too long. It always makes my heart happy :)

If you're interested, the English version can be found online here, and the original French version, Le Petit Prince, is here.

"Out on the edge you see all the kinds of things you can't see from the center.”

“Come to the edge, he said.
They said: We are afraid.
Come to the edge, he said.
They came.
He pushed them
and they flew.”
~Guillaume Apollinaire

what is it about them that makes them so frightfully appealing? i want to walk right up and stand there... leaning. pushing. seeing how far i can go – just to know where it is...

is that so terrible? i don't think so... i quite like it. makes me feel alive, i guess. like i'm doing the most that I can with the life I've been blessed with.

i don't know.

I do forget that not everyone is as comfortable exploring life's edges... and that it's not always my place to take them there.

i feel like more often than not, people in general, are willing (maybe just not ABLE,) to go alone – and *maybe* they just need someone less afraid to guide them...

OR MAYYYBE i should just leave them to find their own way.

“When you have come to the edge of all light that you know and are about to drop off into the darkness of the unknown, faith is knowing one of two things will happen: there will be something solid to stand on or you will be taught to fly”
~Patrick Overton

I don't know. I'm rambling and I've had two glasses of wine... I'm going to sleep :)

I've written about "off" switches before. how i need one – WANT one - for my crazy brain (especially lately)... okay, maybe not "off" (that might not work out very well in the long run) – a volume control, at the very least.

You know how when you're in the midst of turmoil (or confusion or dilemma of any sort, really), your brain just goes non-stop. And the more it goes (i.e. the more you THINK about the situation), the more confusing everything becomes. And the more you realize you have no idea what you're even thinking anymore...

Nothing makes sense. You feel numb.

My brain has definitely over-exerted itself the past few weeks, and now it doesn't really want to do anything. It's rebelling against my thoughts. My BRAIN is rebelling agains my thoughts... hmm. Yeah, well, that's what it feels like. It's tired, and so am I today.

I just don't know how to make it stop. I wish, for just one day, that I could silence the analysis. The self-reflection. The internal debates. The what-ifs. The incessant contemplation. I wish I could just change the channel and let my brain focus on something else for a day...

just one, stupid day.